Loneliness and Being

It is loneliness that gives you peace.
It is loneliness that inspires the deepest thoughts.
It is loneliness that embodies the most insignificant sense of being.

Why think?

The more I think
The more I drink

The more I drink
The more I remember

The more I remember
The more I feel sad

The more I feel sad
The more I drink

The more I drink
The less I think

The less I think
The less I remember

Why think?

Reflection

成就型（精明能幹，重視形象）
您是自信、野心勃勃、成功、行動敏捷和熱心十足。
您賣力工作來追求自我的目標，而且是極佳的驅動者，能讓身邊的人共享「任何事都可以達成」的信念。
您的腦子裏盡是不同的任務，心中牽掛著許多不同目標，並在必要時給予每個目標應有的注意力。
您把焦點都放在勝利上，不注重細節，也不在乎投機取巧完成。
您不注重感覺，只在乎自己的形象，著眼於別人回應給您的感覺。
優點：您對別人的期望具有直覺的洞察力，可以像變色龍一樣改變自己的形象以順應身邊的人。
缺點：您和自己的感覺失去了連繫，總是拖到空閒的時候才去感覺情緒。
愛情：雖然您可能經常感覺到關係會結束，但您能夠為伴侶帶來活力、樂觀和主動。對您來說形象是最重要，所以您很容把注意力放在群眾，令伴侶感覺被丟在一旁、不受重視，成為您形象下的附屬品。
「關係對我而言壓力很大，如果我選擇了特定的伴侶，我所能掌握的事會變得很有限。」
安定方位：忠誠型在安定的狀態下您會開始接觸到自己的感覺，但這是一個兩難的情況，因為您對自己、環境和感覺的種種懷疑也跟著浮現。
壓力方位：平和型當面對感情的壓力或情緒對抗時，您會開始迷失了焦點及自信心，會傾向過度耽溺於足球、酗酒、藥物等。變成搖擺不定、意志渙散的人，甚至因為無法自我激勵而惱怒。
建議：停下來感受一下自己的感覺避免很有目的地交友放慢腳步，停下手邊的工作，花一點時間外出。
最渴望：自己的能力被認同，讚賞
最恐懼：不被賞識，感到懷才不遇
最難達到的美德：坦誠 (Honesty)
最難克服的執念：虛榮 (Vanity)

Turn to a new leaf

First issue, special edition, autograph...and more, more than a thousand copies of comics and accessaries, new and second hand, I have amassed throughout the early years of my lifetime. The copies in hand are disappearing, yet the memory never blots. The time...
When I saved up to buy old copies (strolled back and forth between Tsuen Wan and Sham Shui Po)...
When I joined the comic club to save up 10% (where the shop was located in the 2/F of Tsuen Fung Centre. The comics, however, were unauthorized local edition, possibly translated and imported from Taiwan)...
When I rushed to buy the latest copies (I still remember the embarrassing moment when I slipped down badly to buy Black Leopard / Tin Hai in Shek Wai Kok )...
When I woke up early to queue for special edition and autograph (the very early bird of Book Fair, more than 10 years ago possibly 93, in HKCEC, at the time when the Fair was not the focus of the mass media. The most wonderful time was that I took a VIP ticket, from the comic shop nearest my home, to get in early in the exhibtion hall and browsing the so-called early bird...haha)...
When...I was young and affordable to do whatsoever I wanted (I afforded the time, energy, gusto, any sort of engagment a usual youngster could.)...

A new leaf is turning without any second thought that I could ever hesitate as I did and fleed to resolve in the past. It's the time, no sooner, no later. It's just the time. If I could ever start again, it's still my path I have ever made.

More than wonderful and cheerful I could say, no regret about my early life. I had accomplished whatsoever I wanted at that very daring moment.

On screen

Reading list at the moment

1. The Historian (daily)
2. Robinson Crusoe (occasionally)
3. Crime and Punishment (very occasionally)
4. 紅樓夢 (on the shelve)
5. 張愛玲 (ready on the table)
6. 白先勇 (on the table too)
7. 徐志摩 (same as the above)
8. 唐詩宋詞 (tired of repeating the above remarks)
...(should be much more, stop by occasional reading)

紅豆曲

滴不盡相思血淚拋紅豆，
開不完春柳春花滿畫樓；
睡不穩紗窗風雨黃昏後，
忘不了新愁與舊愁。
咽不下玉粒金口噎滿喉，
照不見菱花鏡里形容瘦。
展不開的眉頭，
捱不明的更漏－－
呀！
恰便似遮不住的青山隱隱，
流不斷的綠水悠悠。

A guy's story

Thursday, June 02, 2005
A guy's story

There was a guy, called Fool. He was always absence-minded in a way
that he said a word and forgot in another day.
There was a gal, called Joy. She was unpredictable and used to do
whatever she liked in a way that she cried and laughed all in a
sudden.
Joy was once fond of Fool and so did he. He was so foolish that he did
not treasure a gal like her seriously, again and again. Her heart was
broken, again and again. Tears had done and trust had gone.

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She

She is there, and she always does.
She needs love and always does.
She wants sincerity and always does.
She seems like looking for love with no end.
She puts love in the very first priority over everything.
She is charming and dazzling, sincere and cordial.

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Joyce

Sunday, June 12, 2005
Joyce

Joyce has gone to UK.
I will miss you, whenever you go.
You are so lovely and lovable.
We share the same moonlight.
Every night, when you look up the sky.
On the other side of the earth,
somebody is over there and looking at you.
But, don't miss me...

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Closer and stranger

Friday, May 27, 2005
Closer and stranger

So close and so strange.
Talk like closers, sound like strangers.
We talk and talk, and all day long.
Affection and passion,
Determination and hesitation.
Give me your hand and
I read your soul.
Give you my soul and
we share one soul.

Simply write

637pm, May262005


Stories of two lovers in the city.
Encounter at the corner of the city,
By chance again and again.
Steps and toes, and soar,
Up flying high and touching wild.
Walk and walk, talk and talk,
To the dawn, before sunrise,
Tango before sunset.
We hold tight, we love tight.